Sunday, 21 April 2013

Twins in SCBU: Day 2

Today was Zachary and Zoey's second day in the world and it was spent in the SCBU. There are lots of ups and downs at the moment. It is a really hard time but has some special magic moments too.

Finally visiting the babies in SCBU
I had an exciting start to the day as I got to see the twins this morning for the first time since they were born. Both babies are in incubators and I found little Zoey sporting an eye mask underneath lights being treated for jaundice.



She really is tiny especially when you compare her to Zachary who already looks so much stronger and chubbier. It was so lovely to finally be able to touch them, their skin and hair are so soft, like velvet.



While there I had a minor meltdown moment though, triggered by the nurse mentioning that she had changed Zachary's merconium poo nappy. It transported me back to when Ben was a newborn and what a significant thing the first merconium poo was. Suddenly It dawned on me that because of the twins early entry into world I will not be able to do all the normal newborn/Mummy things with them which made me feel well, like poo.

First cuddles with Zachary
It wasn't long before I was on a high again though when told that I could have a cuddle with Zachary later that day. I cannot describe how amazing it was to hold him in my arms and have skin to skin with him finally. Such a special moment, I just wish I could do it all day.



Ben meets the twins
I have also been missing Ben so much, I have never been apart from him for a night before so it's been hard. It was great to see him and his meeting Zachary and Zoey in their special little houses went amazingly well. He brought special teddies for them and was clearly delighted to meet them.



Going home without me though wasn't very easy for him and he rang me later to say he wanted me to come home. I'm not sure how long more I will be in for and I feel really torn between wanting to be there for Ben and wanting to be with the twins.

Pump frustration
When Ben, his Daddy and Nana left I gave expressing a go and failed miserably with the electric pump. I just can't relax in the feeding room and pump. I tried for a while but not much came out so I abandoned it and made the decision to try hand expressing and using a syringe for now which albeit slow and tedious I can do.

The best bit
Feeling rather down about the whole expressing, or lack thereof I headed down to see the twins. The nurse looking after Zoey asked me if I wanted to change her nappy and then hold her. I jumped at the chance to reclaim some Mummy duties, changed her bum and then the best part of the day happened. I was holding Zoey in my arms and she started nuzzling about my boob, next thing I knew she had ripped out her feeding tube and latched on to me. She ended up breastfeeding for over an hour and refused to be taken off until she finally fell into a milk drunk sleep. It was amazing.

25 comments:

Danielle Parker said...

Amazing Mags, beautiful babies and a beautiful honest post, thinking of you all as always xxx

@bluebearwood said...

Congratulations lovely and big hugs as well. Multiple births are so different to singleton births. xxx

Elaine Livingstone said...

wow what a beautiful written post, all heart and emotion. Well done on the breast feeding. Fif was in the SCBU having been born at 29+6 weighing 3lb 3oz and it is very hard when you dont have them there next to you. Chin up.

jellynbubble said...

Lovely post. Glad to hear they are doing so well. Lovely to hear about Zoey breastfeeding so well for so long! :)

Zoe Lester said...

Lovely post. All the parts you will look back on. So glad Zoey had a BF after your struggle expressing.

Attachment Mummy said...

Yay, well done Zoey - and you! What a brilliant moment. Sending prayers that they continue going from strength to strength.

MumReinvented said...

I just read that with tears in my eyes, you must be so frustrated yet elated at the same time. The twins are beautiful! So happy they both seem to be doing well and little Zoey sounds like she knows exactly what she wants bless her, what a clever little thing!

TheBrickCastle said...

That's just so fantastic, what a beautiful thing to be able to feed your tiny little lady. I won't read anything more heartwarming today :)

welshmumof3boys said...

Ah how wonderful being able to breastfed like that :) they are both gorgeous xx

Red Rose Mummy said...

Ah! What an emotional post, it brought tears to my eyes. Your little girl obviously knows her own mind very well and knows who her mummy is. Just wonderful xxx

Lisa said...

What a beautiful moment that must have been. So glad the twins are doing well x

sonya said...

Awww they are beautiful, and how wonderful that she was able to breast feed, must have been a magical moment for you after a tricky start. Xx

Susan Mann said...

What a beautiful post. Lovely seeing Ben see his brother and sister. And bless wee Zoey latching on, truly amazing. Hugs z

KC said...

Ah they are so precious and you got me teary again just reading your words. Ben looked happy when I dropped off the clothes today & Nana was so proud!

Sarahmumof3 said...

oh Mags, they are so beautiful I am so pleased to hear littleZoey had a good feed!! wel done to her and you, Iam sure you willall be home very soon xx

TheBoyandMe said...

Oh I'm actually sobbing. That is the most beautiful thing ever. Well done Zoey, good girl for feeding so brilliantly. You must feel amazing Mags.

Claire Toplis said...

Just wonderful

LauraCYMFT said...

Oh wow. What a clever little girl she is. She just knew where she wanted to be. So cute. It must be hard to be away from Ben and I hope it won't be long until you are all home as a family of 5!

Clare Nicholas said...

Oh im crying xx love this xx I hope your all bome soon

mummyglitzer said...

Oh how clever is she?! That's just wonderful! Xx

savvywendy said...

Oh lovely xx Hope your are all home soon

Michaela Britton said...

Oh how fantastic, so great to see how she latched on and fed from you :-) So beatiful

Where Roots And Wings Entwine said...

Oh lovely. Its amazing that she latched on and fed from you; very touching, beautiful moment x

tinuke said...

Such awesome photos, thank you for sharing your journey, Zachary and Zoey are both so beautiful and it's so amazing that Zoey decided to breastfeed all on her own!

Aly said...

Oh I'm so glad things are coming along for you.Clever little Zoey :)

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